Well, not really, but I have been a bit "me focused" lately. I am absorbed in this pregnancy and the details that must be worked out. It has been very interesting and everytime I think there is nothing more to plan for I discover that there really is more. I have been planning for ordering my birth kit and some homeopathic remedy stuff. Also, I am trying to plan for all the things I need to take with me for the birth, as well as, the unresolved detail of where the birth will actually take place. So, yesterday I am thinking of all the things to have on hand... some garbage bags for various things, plenty of towels, and the little things like bendy straws. I realize that I have a pretty good list going and am feeling as if I may have everything on the list when a thought occurs to me, "If I have the bendy straws for drinking during labor, I probably need a cup!" Oh my gosh! It seems never ending! LOL! Okay, so I decided it might be wise to get a package of disposable cups. It is the small details like that that drive you nuts when planning for a birth outside of the hospital... and outside of your own home. I won't have my things or a nurse that I can push a button for. I will have a labor assistant, but she surely will not have a travelling closet of everything I get a whim for. So, I must prepare and think it all out... eshaustively. LOL! It is pretty funny. And the most surprising thing I think is that the midwife asked to have a crockpot... really? Apparently, they like to keep diluted olive oil warmed up in a crockpot of perineal soaks. Who knew?! So, now I have to pack up a crock pot of all things. I was thinking the microwave would do for anything that needed to be warm... and maybe it would... I better add that to my list of things to ask. See what I mean?! One thought leads to another thought and before you know it I am stressing over wondering if I have it all. Of course, I am sure I will never have it all, so I guess I better just chill out.
Anyway, it is not all about me.... but I seem to have slipped into my own world. I have to remember to come back to reality sometimes... Call a friend, send and email, post a facebook message, post a blog post, or go outside and try to find some sunshine. I am still out here everyone! And I have not forgotten everyone in my life or tried to alienate myself as it may seem. I just have a lot of little details to work out.